One thing I cannot stand is being confronted with accusations and assumptions about things regarding myself that aren't true, especially when those things come from someone I deeply love and care about. It's hurtful and plain annoying and after dealing with it for so long it gets old. I work hard for every single thing I have from the Louboutin's on my feet..to my car parked outside..to all the nice things my son has been blessed to have. So when I have someone making assumptions about what I've done to get that stuff, or who got it for me it pisses me the fuck off. My mother, brother, aunt, and cousin have been the only people to help me in any way (they have helped with having a place for me to stay and helped with my son). Noone financially supports me (occasionally I may borrow money from my mom, but she always gets paid back). I also hate the assumption that I am also out there partying all the damn time. I am working and taking care of my son 95% of the time and I barely have time to go out and have the fun I would like to have. I don't have a ton of friends anymore (they are all an hour and a half or more away, and no one is trying to travel). I no longer feel the need to explain myself any further. I'm grown and if you, or anyone else thinks of me in a negative light then you just ain't for me. Just had to put that out there.

If you're going to do something wrong, do it big, because the punishment is the same either way. -Jayne Mansfield

I think I just had an epileptic seizure. Dope video!

(Photos taken by John from SwaggerDap)
So my little big bro released a free web copy previewing his poetry collection recently. I've been meaning to post this up for a minute, but my memory sucks. Check out his press release and download below! I'm extremely proud of him and can't wait until this hits stores. Love ya Jemar!


My Decade Press Release

In 2010, Jemar “Meezy” Souza began aspiring to be one of the best writers of his generation. At The Start of My Decade, is a poetry collection that documents a year of striving for that goal;
and Jemar hopes that it will stand as a testament for not only the beginning of his journey to success, but for anyone who is aspiring to be the best at their passion.

My Decade features 23 poems inspired by Jemar’s personal experiences; music artists: Hezekiah, Janelle Monae, Jean Grae, FKI’s Raye Rich, Kings of Leon, Tennille, and The-Dream; as well as fashion photography
from HypeBeast, Lookbook.nu, and more.

This simple and Free Web Copy is just a teaser until the final print version is designed, produced, and in stores later this year.

So have a read, and feel free to share your thoughts -meezywrites@gmail.com /
@jMEEZYs on Twitter w/ #MyDecade hashtag/
or www.SongZiGe.com.*

Download: Scribd | UserShare

Think I'm getting this tattooed on me....Not James Dean, but his quote. lol

So I was sitting here thinking to myself...And I realized the only way I will ever be truly happy is to do things on my own terms. I'm always doing whatever everyone else wishes for me to do, always trying to make everyone happy..However, at the end of the day am I happy? No. So from this day forward I'm doing WHAT I WANT.

This contains nudity. If you're offended by real nudity of real women then exit stage left.


I remembered when I discovered my first stretch mark appearing on my tummy while I was pregnant. I cried like a baby. After I gave birth to my son and my stomach was covered with stretch marks, plus I was left with a gut, and had a lovely c-section scar to match. I went into deep depression. I thought my body was ruined and I thought my man thought I was ugly. I was a model and a dancer before I got pregnant, and my body was almost perfect (I had a stretch mark here and there, but it was no big deal). Now I look back and realize how stupid I was. Society has put this label out there that stretch marks are ugly, giving birth ruins your body, you're supposed to be skinny after having a baby, and so on and so forth. It's terrible. If anything, I should of embraced my stretch marks and new body. I should of known I was beautiful. I wish someone would of been there to slam that in my head at the time. After all, I carried a healthy baby boy for 9 months without any real huge complication. Nowadays I wear my stretch marks a lot better. They've become apart of who I am. They're a lot lighter now (still noticeable), my stomach is flatter, and I'm down to 115 lbs. I have my moments of sadness still, but I snap out of it pretty damn quick.
Anyways what I'm trying to say is...Ladies, wear your bikinis proudly this summer and show off those marks (and the floppy tits, and baby gut, if you still have it). You did something miraculous..Whether you had a baby, or lost or gained a ton of weight, or whatever. Who gives a fuck what anyone wants to think? We're all hot.



All photos are from various real and beautiful models, photographers, and artists from deviantart.com.
Please click on the photos to go to each of their pages. Thanks!

I don't smoke, in fact I think it's really a bad habit and it's kinda gross...but these vintage cigarette ads are hilarious! Can't get away with any of these nowadays! Times sure have changed...

I blogged about this song awhile ago. I'm THRILLED Rihanna released a vid for it. I meant to blog the video a few days ago, but I've been wrapped up with the re-design of style-amore.com (check it out kids!)



Anyway I love the colors, and LOVES that she stuck to the S&M theme. PURE HOTNESS!